Angry??or Emphaty?

Tonight I was supposed to angry.You always act like a Boss at home and never respect people.But when I see your handphone, I feel really sad because i could feel the loneliness inside you.Maybe is my fault caused i never keep you in my prayer before.You are a lost sheep that leave his shepperd. God I know you are waiting for him like the father in the prodigal son story.God I know I don't deserve to ask anything from you,but lord please bring him back like you bring me back 2 years ago.Change his life and open his eyes so that he could encounter you...pls lord!!bring my brother come back from the gates of flame..plss.............

Rainy day@@

I was walking alone on the street.
The whether is getting worse.
The dark cloud start to cover the sun and the sky are getting gray.
Slowly water start to drop from sky and it touch my nose.
From drizzling to heavy rain.
I run as fast as i could to find a shelter,
but before i could reach the shelter my whole body is wet.
Standing alone at the shelter hoping there is a umbrella beside me.
Very unlucky that,the rain is getting heavy and thunders start to strike.
I was alone and i am very cold.
I am tired and i wan to rest,
but i cant,caused i need to be strong.
I tell myself that even how heavy this rain is,
it cant stop the fire inside me.
I deeply believe that after the rain,
there will be a colourful rainbows and beautiful sunshine awaits me.
Be strong!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELP!!

I feel so stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are the light of my path...

Everyday I woke up in the morning,I see death news in the newspaper.

Life is fragile and you will never know when is your last breath.

Even though how rich you are,how many insurance you buy or how careful you are,yet you still cant guarantee your life is safe forever.

This life is not control by us, and we have no choice because everyone of us will meet death one day.

If I have only left one hour to live now,I have nothing to sad or regret because I know that I am going to a place that is full of happiness and living eternal life with God.

If God give me another chance to live again,I definitely will choose Fong Tim Ci again.

Although he may have a lot of weaknesses,limitations, or problems but I still proud to be him.

If now is my last breath,the hardest things for me to put down is my family,my friends,and my memories.

I have the best parents and siblings on the earth.Even though they are not rich but when i am lost they pull me back to the track,and never leave me on dark alone..

I also have the best friends on earth,God give me friends that not only motivate me but sometimes also do help me in my problems.Even though there is sometimes there is things they cant help but they are willing to hear my problems..

There are many sweet and sour memories this 20 years.Life is just like a stairways,there will be obstacles during your way.When you face problems in life you cant stop moving or move backwards,instead you need to be strong and step forwards for a breakthrough.

Sometimes I may make wrong or bad decisions,but when I know God is with me there is nothing I cant lost.Maybe you may think of using your own strength to solve all the problems,but until one point we will give up.

I may not be smart,handsome,good attitude or perfect but still thanks God for being the light to my path and never give up shining my life...

BE STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE??

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)

Artist: Jaeson Ma

Song: Love

FGA CYC-5 years anniversary

24-10-2009

Dear God,

I was once lost in the wilderness but then you found me and brought me back.I know that I don't deserve anything from you but thank you for not giving up on me and put me in CYC,this warmth home.Its my greatest pleasure to walk with you in this home for 3 years.Many things has happened past few year,from impossible became possible,from faithless to faithful,from hopeless to hopeful and nobody to somebody.

I know i have have a lot of limitation but i am willing to give out for you even though there is only last 2 coins in my pocket,for what i have is belong to you lord.I still don't satisfied for the memories in this home. I want to experienced you more in this home.God I see this home in 5 years later will be a huge tree that bring faith,hope and love to all the peoples.Not because how great we are,but is because of your presence with us every Saturday evening.

God i love you,i love this home and i love all of you,brother and sister.Brother and Sister, because of your small pieces in the picture,CYC become a warmth house.And I am glad to be a small piece of the picture in this home. :-)These are few video that are memories in my heart,but i believe there are more to come in future!!!GOGOGO Fga CYC!!!

Sept event...

Fighting against time..

WOw..so fast 9 month already!!!Few more month i will be 21..another year past..aikxxx,feel so old but look still young..hehex..Alot things happened especially this few month...I think i am alot diffrent compare to last time..Last time I dont speak well,but now....i still dont speak well,hahax,but what growth inside me is the faith from god to speak...NOT enough!!!I need more faith!!!Dont be proud!!Humble is what i need...Put down yourself is not easy...especially your ego and ur attitude...Love your enemy as yourself?Hmm,say out is easy but doing it is very hard...Willingness to give?Do i have??What i have not much..but I must give more than those who have...Leadership skills??interpersonal skills??Wisdom??..etc...so much more to learn and improve and time move until very fast...aikxx i m still so weak in everything,BUT I believe I am strong person because god is with me all the way!!!

YEss!!

Gods revival is in Malaysia Now!!!!yeahH!!!

KoKo days and ROck climbinG at 1U...

WHat pose is that!!hahax..

My secondary school!!"bangga"

Walau expensive!!

before end..

Camp 5 at one u

Monkey yok climbing!!! aikxxx so easy reach top..

Great day!!hehex..love u guys!!

Something meaningful!!!

Came across this meaningful comic today in the internet....

We may pray and pray for a good and happy life, but no matter what and how much we pray, there will always be something 'unpleasant' that happens to us anyways.But let's not overlook that these 'unpleasant' things may have just been a small fragment of what God was really protecting us from.Praises to Him. =)

Its life~~

Sitting in the computer lab alone...YEsss is alone again...Actually nothing big deal whether is alone or not....I m alone doesnt mean i m anti social or no friends...sometimes i really do think friends cant help us everything...friends is just a life companion...the time spend together will be just memories or even forgot...Hmmm in fact last time i put friends as my first priority...Yess u can say that i m very easy influenced by friends...If influeced by good friends is okay...But,some people you should think twice before u trust them...I trusted alot of friends and some i even treated them as my best buddy...but when onething went wrong..they just forgot everything went through together and treat u like a stranger....Hahaha doesnt mean i condemn all my friends now...there some are like brother to me...we shared the sweet,sour and bitter taste together..However do remember that there is a limitation even they are close friends to u...I use to live life for friends but now i understood this is not the main objective...there is a Greater person u can rely and much more better then your friends...Friends can betrayed you, hurt you, or even acting infront of you..but HE will not...Although we can see him but his presence is truly around us..Live in his light and i believe he will choose the right path for us...hehex...Looking forward NEW CG.......Cyc 20j!!!hehex..Gambateh everyone!!

thank you Jesus!!xp..

I M back!!!

HEYYYYY!!!like ages never touch this blog...hmmm alot thing already past...Exams,AFJ,Holidays,transformer, and.............bla bla bla...as usual this few month my life is up and down....looking back my past few week,some problems is seem to be a problems no more BUT some problems is like a magnet keep sticking to me(Grrr)..Hmm maybe god create all of us with problems to test our faith..anyway there is a english quote said that yesterday is past,today is present and tommorow is a mystery..YEAHH!!!!life is a process of learning and i REALLY very EXITED right now to see tommorow mystery!!!It may not be good but i LOVE my life so much!!!Looking forward tomorrow!!!Gambateh everyone!!!

Exam..

Exam in 2 more weeks!!Gambateh!!

Mothers day(9May)

Today it was the happiest mother day I ever celebrate cause my father finnaly accepted christ during the service..I dunno whether he is willingly or not but all I know is i should be glad and grateful that God has make a huge step in my family towards christ,in fact deep inside my heart it was the opposite of the feeling...Cause i really worry that it might be the devil traps..I worry that this salvation door is just an illusion...I m really affraid that there are more devils attacks on me and my family...Can I resist all the temptations??Am I strong enough??Maybe i m not fit but I know at this time I MUST NOT get tired...I cant give up what God have gave me...my studies,family,friends, and everything in my life....I m just nothing but u never give up on me...thx...PRAY!!



Taken last year...

An old fren birthday-May 1st 2009...

Knowing u since form 1,but comparing to last time u chg alot...although now not as close as last time but i really glad to have a fren like u!!!Thx for all the helping and cheering dude....HPY 20 birthay!!!May all ur wishes come true!!!

All the best Mel...

April the unforgetable month

This month very "luin sui",Is not because of April fool or other events...It was biggest thing happen,whole heart zone reshufftle cell group...I had been chg to heart 8....and i know god's pressence was is in cyc as we are growing rapidly...I see everyone in heart 12 are growing as well...It was not easy to leave heart 12 but i know that god is calling me out from my comfortable place...In new Cg i know i have to change and not like last time..cause at this stage i know that satan will attack me more...I must be more mature and strong!!!!...pray!!



All the best heart 12!!!

MarcH 18 2009^^

Change!!

Don care!!
Start frOm now I want to change!!
Every Aspect!!
ChanGE!!!!!!
CHANGE!!!!!!!
No more LOW cOnfident!!!
No more Banana!!
No more aNti social!!!
No more faKe faces!!!
No more Negative thinkings!!!
No more heart broken!!!
No more tired!!!
No more slacking!!!
NO MORE OLD TIMCI!!!
WAkakakaka...amen..

Pastor Jay Koopman...

"Live to glory god names not ours!!"

Tonight Pastor Jay Koopman an annointing speaker came to FGA CYC...He had delivered a great messages to us....He remind us to be more then a Christian....He also ask us to be like King David:
1.Must have heart of worship..
2.Be a brave warrior in christ...
3.Dare to go to war...
4Makes good decisions...
5.Be a good looking man...
6.Must always put god inside you..

Tonight he really encourage me alot...Looking foward for his next messageXP
http://www.jaykoopman.com/

Ya tOu at 8Tv...Xp

Support them ya!!!

How to be attractive???

Today i learn alot of things in today service with Pastor Zhang...One of them is HOW TO BE ATTRACTIVE???i always thought look is important here,but look does not last forever....there are 3 main points giving me a deep impression...

First,to be attractive...your attitude must be very good and your characters must be extraordinary....Extraordinary here simply mean be yourself back...dont try to act another persons...Do everything with a sincere and truth heart...

Secondly,we must have a lot of extra knowledge compare to others..this is because knowledge will last even when you get old compare to a person look....everyone will indirectly stick to you just because u know alot of things and you will be a walking encyclopedia to them...

Lastly,you must open your heart...Here actually means u must not be shy or keep your mouth shut just because you are not good in communication skills..The shy here means you dont really know how to express your feelings...

Sometimes I really wonder whether am i attractive enough and I know i totally getting out from this three points...I couldnt find back the feelings...I totally lost my confident towards myself....I really feel shit with this fake face inside me....is just not me....where is the cheering side of me gone!!??!!Pray...

Happy birthdaY aH BooooooOon!!

Hpy 20th BddaY la BrO!!!MaY ur all Wishes Come trUE!!!

What makes a perfect boyfriends???

Wohoho...valentine is coming soon!!!Almost every girl keep finding a perfect boy for his date on 14 Feb and is not easy...hahax..Recently I saw this information of the perfect boyfriend.. What make a prefect boyfriend for a gal? Here are some ways that a guy can make his gal feel special............(Red are some of my experienced and opinions of those action...lolz)

• leave her cute text notes.(Sure definitely this is a great idea...I does it before, i leave a sweet notes on her desk whenever i make her angry..xp)

• kiss her in front of your friends.(Hmmm for me,I dont think this is good...First of all,I do not dared...hahax...but if i do this,i think she aso dont like lor...what do you think girls??hahax)

• tell her she is gorgeous.(Yess!!!this is a must....cuase i think all humans like to hear praises,especially girls...hahahax..but u don say it until so fake la..)

• look into her eyes when you talk to her.(Of course!!!This is to show her that u are sincere whenever you talk to her and you are bluffing her...BETTER DONT!!)

• let her mess with your hair.(I really like to mess girls hair...but I dont like girl to mess my hair especially when I took few hours to style it...hehex)

• touch her hair.(Yes yEs yes!!hhahahx...but dont too over la..later she angryxP)

• just walk around with her.(This is a time that I find it past very very fast...yeah I love this time so much eventhough both of us do not speak a single words but in our hearts clearly know what is happening:)....)

• "FORGiVE HER FOR HER MiSTAKES". (Ermmm,this depend what she has done lorr...Ofcourse I will forgive her..but dont do it too much la)

• look at her like she`s the only one you see.(Yeahhh whenever you with her..always and always look at her and only her even any pretty girls pass by...lolz)

• tickle her even when she says stop.(errrhh...dont too much...later she will scold u..)

• hold her hand when you`re around your friends.(Of course.....this show that u wont let her goXp)

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.(Hmmm i never went to a girl house or ask a girl to come to my house sleep before...but even i have a chance I wont share the same bed with her...and i will let sleep the bed for her and i on the floor( control!!)....of course i will lower down the air cond if it is cold..so no need t-shirts..hehe...)

• get her mad and kiss her.( Sure I love to make a girl angry and swear at me...then i will try my best to make her happy back...hehe..is part of it....)

• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.(If she really get mad,then i wont mess with her...give her some time to chill 1st...if u still talking with her she wont listen to u..lolzz)

• let her fall asleep in your arms..(hmm I never try it before...i think it is good but make sure she will not leave her saliva on my shirt...haha jokingXp)

• tease her and let her tease you back.(Definitely great...i think this will enhance the relationship..hehex)

• stay up all night with her when she`s sick.(Hmm for me....I will see what kind of sick....if not to serious just let her rest bah....)

• watch her favorite movie with her.(Definitely lor even u have watched it!!!cause we are guys...aikxxx)

• kiss her forehead. (Sure...A simple kiss can express all your feelings:) to her...)

• give her the world.(SIAO ehh..ofcourse not the whole world....Must leave some spaces for guys aso mar...so dont always aspect guy must give girl everything he got...heheh...but of course must always be truth to her@@...)

• write her letters. (I got write once before...but she never wrote back to me....and she just talk to me face to face...so i think anything we just say out face to face bah...lolzz)

• let her wear your clothes. (I seldom bring any extra cloth to go out for a date....Unless go cinema..)

• when she`s sad, hang out with her.(I think this is important lor..even u cant do anything to cheer her but at least u are by her side and lend her ur arm so that she wont feel lonely...@.@)

• let her know she`s important.(How to let her know??hahax if say it out to her like very fake...For me i think no matter what happen also tell her...dont keep it as secret...Dont bluff her...)

• let her take all the photos she wants of you.(Ermmm,for me i would not only let her take my pic...but will include her insideXp...)

• kiss her in the pouring rain.(LOLx...this seem only happen in movie..hahahx..if real life of course i wont let her get wet lor...u want her get sick meh??hehehx)

• you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.(Of course!!!BUT Dont make any empty promises when u dont really sure...)

LOLx....thats it.....a perfect guy lists??hahax. Hope you get to know something here,and I am not expert in love,so pls dont ask for futher consultation...hehex..anyway wishing all my friends and all the couples a Happy Valentine daY in advance!!God bless...

Bye Chinese new year...

15 days of chinese new year finnaly past...so fast!!!hmmm quite alot of angpow...and really enjoy to celebrate it with all my friends and my family...wish u all the best everyone!!!