Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Growing...

YOYO..damn long din touch my blog,damn lazy to write this few days...aikxx.Today my mom clean my cupboard..Damn messy,i saw a lot of old stuffs..A lot of my old toys that i din touch for years and also i found my photo album.I almost cant recognize my childhood face,I really cant expect that i change a lot,getting more and more handsome^^haha...Wow!! this photo album really bring me back a lot of memories,a lot of sad,happy and unforgettable moment.Here let me upload some of my young pictures...BUT pls dont laugh at me okay??hahaha^^



Once upon a time,a baby,who name TC were born in 1989,18 march(remember to give me bdday presents)...cute and sexy!!!haha.Under 18 please do not look at this pic and if wan to look make sure u have guardian beside u..hehe^^



Continue my life journey,this pic was took when i was 3 years old at Tean Hou temple...aikxxx..i look like a little punk..T.T



This pic is when i was 6 years old,aikxx..Mr lonely T.T



Look like last time i always wear that shirt only..aikxx,so cham...However the left one is my bro and the right one is my sis..



OWHHhhhhHHhh,finally i got my own friends,these were all my primary friends,but all lost contact liao,sob sob...My hair so short,i will never cut that short again..haha^^



As time pass by,and my hair grow abit longer..haha.This is my form 1 pictures with all the pa system members.Some of u all may shock if u all saw this pic,kekeke^^



OMGGGGGGGG!!!!!this is my f2 pIc,LOOOK,LOOK at my hair..hahahah,duunno how to keep my hair..so long and messy..JUst like grasses..zZzz



Phewwwwwwww.........luckily fOrm 3 i learn how to keep my hair back..Okay la this hair...This pic is taken in Sanctuary's V-party.The middle one is joseph and the left one is sherman..hahaha^^



Form 4 already,finished my PMR,and i choose science stream and meet all these cute-cute friends...Cut my hair already...damn stress and a lot of competition in science class..Aikxxxxxxx



This pic took during Anti-dadah drama.Act as the main actor of the drama.I also cant believe i got talent in acting.hehe^^



Time is like flying lidat..My final year in school,omg!! i sleep during BM period...hahahaha,luckily Cik Tee dunno..wakakaka^^Shit..Spm in another 2 month and i still sleeping in class...AIKXXXx,hopeless...T.T



Took the last pic with my best classmates in 2007...I Look so serious der,maybe Spm is around the conner liao...Miss them so much..t.t



Life after F5..celebrating boon guan bdday...BARBEQUE-ing...hehe^^



This the most recently of me....celebrating jiayi bdday at TGI friday.I dun like the food there..

Aikxxxxxx,There are still more pictures...a lot things had already happen in my life and it is passed..Hmm,i believe i there are more things will happen in future...K la..damn tired...GOOODDDDdd nitexx^^

Friday, September 28, 2007

My first time

The sky was dark,

The moon was high,

All alone juz she and I...

Her hair was soft,

Her eyes were blue...

I knew just what she wanted 2 do....

Her skin so soft,

Her legs so fine...

I ran my fingers down her spine...

I din know how,

But I tried my BEST,

I started by placing

my hands on her breast,

I remember my fear,

my fast beating heart,

BUT slowly she spread

her legs apart,

AND when i DID IT,

I felt NO SHAME,

All at once,

The white stuff came,

AT LAZ itz FINISHED,

my first time over,

at MILKING A COW..........................

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Father,please forgive me..



Father.I thank you for the blood of Jesus that cleanses me from all my sin.I come before you in the name of Jesus and ask to be restored to a right relationship with you and my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Father, forgive my incompleteness: not growing in Christ, not expanding my knowledge of the Scriptures, not developing all my talents.

Father, forgive my disinterest: a lack of concern for needs around me, busying myself with new tasks when I should come to honored u lord.

Father, forgive my dishonesty: taking, the easy way rather than the right way, speaking in one manner while living in another, silencing truth to preserve tranquility, settling for less than what is best, loving tradition more than obeying your pioneering Spirit.

Father, forgive my loudness: talking when I should be listening, proclaiming when I should be studying.

Father, forgive my silence: feeling love and failing to whisper it, reeling with joy and not shouting hallelujah, knowing truth and forfeiting an opportunity to share it, sensing a need to share my faith and doing nothing for u lord.

Father your word,say that if i confess my sin,you are faithful and just forgive me and cleanse me from all unrighteouness.I come into your presence to confess all my sins,knowing that i can draw near to you with a true heart in full assurance of faith,having my heart sprinkled from all evil conscience and my body washed with the pure water of your word.

Father,please forgive me...in Jesus name i ask and pray...Amen

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Sien~~



Damn sad today..No mood to blog..Just got scolded by lecturer today for some stupid reason...Dunno what to say,but all i want is freedom!!!When can i free from this rules and exam stress?When can i really finish my course?When can i just sit down 1 day without any worry??aikxxsS..Hope i can fly with the birds,fly freely...fly to anywhere i like.Dowan to face all the "actor" in class!!!aikxx...hpy mOOncake festival all my sincere friends!!all the best to u aLL!!

Monday, September 24, 2007

Those Days



Time passes very fast.It is already 8 months i left my secondary school Tmn Desa.every one have their own path,some continue form 6,some go take matriculation,some enroll in college and some even working.Everyone seem to have their own life compare to last time.For example we use to study the same subjects and topics last time,but now all taking diffrent courses.However...the amazing thing about us are still keep in touch with each other.We still celebrate valentine,chinese new year,birthdays,teachers day and Merdaka together.I belive we will still celebrate all the events in future together and this relationship will get closer and closer no matter how far we go.It is really my pleasure to be their classmates once.All this memories are what money cannot buy and very value to me.I think eventhough i got memory loss when i m old,but this memories will not dissapear from me.This class is realy ......(i really dunno how to describe it with my feeling).

Still remember one of the schooling days...Mom tells me its 6 am,time to get up,i mumble something unintelligible to let her know i m awake and then i think "i'll just snooze for a couple more minute".So a couple minutes passes by,i looked at the time,Oh!!its 6.50,i am going to late again!!Then i wonder why 2 minute become more than half and hour..."Shit!!!late already,late already"these are the first two words greet me each morning.I reach my school,the teacher question me again and somemore i am a prefect that time...Here we sing Negaraku every morning but u only can hear the radio voice and even the bird chirping...hehe...After the assembly,every one went back to their classes.As usual every one will automatically take out their books and not because they are hardworking but they didnt do their homework especially boys..hehe^^.For me,sometimes i do all my homework but the teachers doesnt check it...And sometimes just when i dint complete it, the teacher take a sudden interest in it,aikxxx.

Okay now let's talk bout how my class is like?First of all there is always a distant relative of Stephen chow in the class.You know the one who supplies all the laughing gas for the class.Cant quite call him jokers nowadays because he may turn out to be a famous singer.Where you have the "voice" you are bound to have the "sound of silence",the one who is so quiet until you wouldnt notice if he were absent that day.There will also be someone who's so absent minded that he cant even remember that i am in the same class as him and sleep while teacher is lecturing.Another who might be the next Miss Malaysia and could kill all the guys in school.Of course not less,another who is a reason why girls like to pass by my class(ahem ahem^^)hehe.Then..there someone who tell you "NO la I dint study at all for this test",and come away with "A" while i get a measly D...T__T..Oh musnt forget the leornando Da vinci of the class,the one who inevitable ends up doing the class poster.And of course there is someone who is talented to become director,who is responsible and creative.Thank goodness there is also someone who always finishes her homework,which means you can "refer" to hers when u haven't finished yours.Along the way,you will meet the gentleman of the class,the chauvinist,the panicky one,the calm,the suci-est person,music expert one and our class speakers,who can laugh for things and even when nothing happens,when they laugh and it spread to us..=.=...AND the one who is so fierce that when you talk to her,you need to stand five feet away from her just in case she decided to swing her parang towards your neck,hehe^^Finnaly,the class Romeo and Juliet that cant separate for few minutes and stick together like a glue,loving each other^^(wish u both all de best).

WOw..i cant believe i write so much things leh...just miss all of u so much,miss all the day we studied,played,cried and even pee togther...Hmm..this topic is just unlimited to talk bout..but now is already 2 am...damn tired..if not i will really write few pages.Anyway all the best in life my friends!!! I will not forget u all,I WILL NOT!!!!!!!!!GOD bless u all!!!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Tension,pressure stress and Responsibility

Very new here...hmm@@,someone give me a good idea to blog when i m bored and ask me not to exposed her identity..so i promise dis poor lady ler...But i wonder why alot people like to blog so much until some of them use their eating time to blog with the food beside them...haha... i m not intend to critisize these people..but jus wondering why are they so additcted to this "bloging " maybe this is some spread disease,and this lady trying to spread this disease to me,hopping that i m addicted to blog and and ruin my life...hahaha..^^maybe this lady is cursing me now when she reading this..hehe,anyway i m joking only^^haha..PLS DONT ANGRY YA!!..To be frank,i cant really put all the blame on her,maybe i am just too free and therefore i decided to blog,I m not really sure the propper way to blog,hope,no mistake ya..or maybe noone will be readin my blog..

Aikxx,nvm..let me bring this post topic which also my blog title now,Pressure,Tension,Stress and Responsiblities.I believe almost every people have their own purposes and goals in order to sustain in this creepy and wicked world.Why do i say the world is creepy and wicked??It is because some people may act as ur best friend and turn back to backstab u,and there is another people who stick u like a glue when u are up and kick u away like a stray dogs when u are bottom.I believe there are more diffrent people as the world is fast changing.

However to achieve these goals and purposes are not easy because we need discipline,efforts and responsibility.My highlight here is on responsibility..here i defined responsibility as an obligation tofulfil a task.Therefore when we are assigned with a task,we are responsible to ensure the task is proppely fulfil.Not only fulfil the task perfectly but we also need accountable the achievement of task when given to us.For now,my responsibility is to study and pass all my exams.Unfortunately,i have not yet prepared any of my papers where the days to exam are limited.

I noe my family put a high hope on me especially my dad going to retire soon.I m the youngest in my family,and my sister were married last year,but luckily i got one good brother who willing to pay for all my exam fees.I noe it is not easy to earn the amount of money,thats why i feel so pressure tension and stress.In fact i m not from those rich gates and therefore i cant afford to fail any of my papers in this coming exam.

Pressure,Tension and Stress may sounds diffrent,but to me this three words are the same because it will keep annoying me until my last day.However,i believe this three things are what god trying to test me.So i MUSt be tough and stong to face it.How i wish i could sit down proppely one day to revise all my work.I am not who i am last time,and i cant afford to be who i m last time.Nevertheless,i believe my responsibilities are not just this,and i believe there are more comin unexpected one.Anyway i hope i m well ready to carry all this responsibilties with less pressure,tension and stress...OMG i also dunno what i am writing,hope noone will discover my mistake..hehe^^